Chrysanthemum of heart

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Dear Diary ,
Lagi bahagia!! :D
sekaligus juga gundah,bingung,gelisah


kadangkadang ,sering ,pria gak bisa tepat menebak tanda dari wanita.
kecuali 1 hal,kecuali pria itu telah pengalaman dari banyak wanita.
Dear diary,  jangan salah! tidak sdikitpun aku menginginkan pengalaman dengan cara itu, Tidak! ,..  hanya dia seorang.
the precious.
ia begitu indah, permata di mata Tuhan.

i ever heard "love can make u do stupid things like a child". i can' t  believe it happened to me diary. i posted,doing weird things etc.
Honestly, i dont want to lose someone special in my heart. I hope she  understand me and we are friendly again like old time.

really miss our old time conversation and her support..when there was Only happiness and faith in Him.
i'll try my best for her.
and stay.



Dear diary. I MISS HER "Hi "
HER Sweet "GOODMORNING"
HER Attention
HER VOICE  when calling myphone that time for the first time ,told me she had a good News about her Baptist.
much much words i want to say that time,  like her so much,
but  i was just too happy for her good news,paralyzed ,speechless ,just can said some words. silly me!
inside me,that time i was like: ":D Mulia Mulia Mulia lah namaNya!! :DDD Yayyyyyyyy!!! Jump Jump Jump running running YesssYes Jump !!! etc" silly me couldn't show it.


Then, selama beberapa kali selang waktu , ada problem with my dad dan problem lain2,jadi kurang sering menghubunginya, kami jadi agak jauh,dan makin jauh. sebenarnya saat itu dia ada problemnya sndiri,dan aku tak ingin nambah problemku padanya lagi jika aku curhat padanya.
saat itu menurutku gpp biarlah beban problemnya dibagi kepadaku,dan jadi lebih ringan baginya,  Tanpa sadar karna problem ku sendiri, aku jadi kurang sering menghubunginya,kadang muncul dengan semangat, kadang aku sperti hilang tenggelam kabar berita.


umm,teringat ungkapan "memaafkan & dimaafkan,membuka pintu ke jiwa yg tenang & damai,bagi kedua nya" :)


i lost her contact no. i know she is girl, Diary....but  i wish she text me to say "Hi..how are you Ch"
my only 1 wish  is  aku bisa bicara langsung padanya dan bilang... maafkan Chg ya P....
Aku yang salah Diary. aku yang salah.
I  do want to apologize to her.    so will be peaceful for us.



Dear Diary, being myself, hope she can understand me. Hope she's not mad at me again. Hope she will let me know...,Umm,and hope you can speak,Diary,
i hope that she will say " i forgive you Chg :)" ...and i have big smile back to her :)

♥ honestly, I love her
*Chrysanthemum of the heart *



"relationship is a two way street. It's never all your fault or her fault. U go into the relationship together & both work it through together" - Quotes

 praying dan merasakan sukacita ( ^  ,^ )o